If we didn't know the bad side of things, there would probably be less hate.

Hi so today was meet-the-parent session and we got back our report books, unless you made special arrangements for your parents to meet another day.

So about my results..
I improveddd, hahahah yay. Quite a lot actually. Last year (moys and eoys class positions respectively): 23/37 & 24/37. This year mid years: 8/37.

I was a lil shock when i first saw it. But I suspected I would improve because compared to last year, I'm much hard-working. 1) I don't sleep much during lessons. 2) I go for more tuition LOL. 3) I don't procrastinate much while studying (be4 the exams) except for geog but I studied until 2 am because of the long nap had taken.

Erm, Idk man but I think I should say this even though im kinda lazy and anxious. Okay here it goes: So I feel that hard work is really essential to score well. Like really. There are some people who are smart and therefore can't be bothered to study, but they still can score well. However, most people get their good results because of hard work. You may have a slightly higher iq than someone else but if you don't listen in class most of the time and study, how do you expect to get the good results you want? I don't think I'm smarty smart. When you compare my results, you see a huge difference. But it's because I worked harder. Not because I grew smart. I believe my class position was partially caused by another factor- Lazy students. If let's say half of the lazy students had worked equally as hard as me, my class position would have increased maybe by.. 5-10? Anyways, that leads me to my insecurity in maintaining my class position. My parents and myself now have a high expectation of my results, if i don't maintain the good results, i'm kinda screwed. And I'm starting to become complacent. Shit that. I can't afford to be. So erm yeah, I'm scared. I should keep in mind: Studying is not to get results, it's to increase my knowledge and learn something new.

God bless you. And if you have read the above, thank you and i hope life is going well for you.

I want to dye my hair again. But dark brown now. Whoop deee dooo. But should I risk dying and getting caught or keep my hair frizzy and dull. maybe i should risk

hahahahahah sigh

class phototaking tmr. Everytime i stand beside someone in a class photo, they won't be my friend after a while. I know it's just pure coincidence but very weird la.

here's the diy hair dye I have:





















I'm feeling so excited, can't wait to dye it. But not looking forward to the dye smell :( it's a strong and permanent marker-ish odour. But it's tolerable.

tafn :-)

Hi there.
Heheh my birthday is coming omg omg omg
12 more days baby
woohoo so happy leh

I shall blog about what I want for my birthday :D
So firstly, I want a dslr. I'm not sure whether I really really want it like it's a must-have. I just want something to play with (in a good way), I wanna take good pictures of everything. I know I'm not exactly a good photographer. But but, I'll try. Try to understand the functions and use it well. I've wanted one since last year's birthday but as you can see my parents either forget or pretend to forget or just simply don't care. Even when they had agreed to get it. Yeah, it's really annoying come to think of it. So I too decided not to care since it was frustrating to think of them somewhat breaking their promise. However, now the feeling of wanting is coming back.

So yeah, a dslr is one of the things. :) Sorry I sounded more of ranting instead of wanting the camera itself. Ok, actually, I'm not sure if I will really make good use of the camera so maybe I don't deserve one T^T gahhhhhhh

Next, I dreamed once of getting a pair of hot pink toms. I think they're cute but I'm not really urged to get one. I shall google pics of them. Brbbbb




the one on the right looks red :O i think it's red but whatever, it's still so prettyyyyyyy <3

There were so many other pretty toms. But I like these 2 cause they're the slightly less expensive choices. And they're simple yet gorgeous. They look cool alone but I'm not sure if they'll look good on me, I mean my feet hahahahahah.

That's all I guess. Btw I need a pair of white shoe laces, the normal kind. Anyone willing to buy for me? I'll be really grateful and happy! I keep going to mini toons and those teenager shops which sells earrings and tatoos etc but they either only sell the huge kinds or they don't have white. :( I'll check again tmr. If don't have, someone buy for me pleaseeeeeeeeee.

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a-dee-yos  ah-mee-goes

End of exams :) finally

I don't havta study anymore. But slacking seems so unfun. Everything's done. :( Maybe i should finish up on my book i haven't read in a long time. Something new to do hahaha. Home econs and maths pp 1 were ok, but not ok. I used all of my limited knowledge to do the home econs paper. Prolly gonna just barely pass. Maths pp 1 was kinda bad. I lost 8 marks already. The last question is shit. Just pure shit. That 3 marks part. wth how am i supposed to find the value of x? Then how am i supposed to continue the last part? Mr soh y u no set the paper easy?! So yeh, knew paper 1 was gonna be a killer paper.

Alrighty, went to jacelyn's house today. Had loads of fun. Played with her wii and her dogs and ordered pizza hut. that girl just won't accept our money to pay her back. pfft So anyways, our arms are aching now cause we kept playing the wii heh heh now got arm muscle LOL. Awesome day we had today. (: I love her Maltese cause it's super tamed and shy and cute. zinoooo ^~^

tafn ᵔᴥᵔ

Hi.
Today's maths paper 2 was alright. For once. Thanks setter. Anyways, I'm so scared for paper 1. I have this huge feeling it's gonna be tough. I should practise more. Get off the stinkin internet. And just study. must must must.
Haish, moving house next month. Though the house is nicer (but smaller) lol, I'm too lazy to pack. There's like hell lot of things you know. Books, clothes, bags, stationery etc. Gah. And the house is further from school ;/ it's gonna be 10 stops away from school. Now there's 8, hahahah go do your counting unless you know the mrt stations well.
That's all for now, bye!
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I've been on the internet for perhaps more than 7 hours today.
I've done almost everything.
I'm so sick of all the songs i keep replaying on youtube.
At times I wished I had a music player.

So thank goodness I've got blogger.

Anyway, History was ok, I hope. I managed to finish but I missed out bloody loads of points in section c. I couldn't state the dates. :( And the "new harbour" was actually keppel harbour but I wrote "the harbour around present-day sentosa" XD haahahahaha I really hope I do well enough. I studied terribly hard for the test. If I don't do well, I'm not gonna blame myself; after all, I did try my best.

Oh yupp, I am supposed to be doing all the maths ws. Fudge. My tuition teacher wants to go through on sunday. omgomgomg. i am dead. but i will not get off the internet. my legs are numb. i want something sweet.

Literature on tuesday.
I am gonna fail and then wallow in self-pity. And realise how stupid i am because im self-pitying and how stupid i literally am. And then i go crazy and break down. Like what i did for maths. But i told jennifer that if i passed, I would treat her to fundango. I'm serious. I would give anything to pass.

I'm seeing so many gorgeous people. Especially bloggers. Youtubers. Tumblr users. School mates. EVERYWHERE IS FILLED WITH PRETTY GIRLS..
and I'll never be one.

I realised I'm just trying not to sound so pathetic.
So truth is, I'm scared of people judging me.
There I said it.
Even though, I know, no one will ever stop judging.
with the exception of jesus.

Okay. No school tmr hooray. I should must do all my homework. Must must must. I need motivation. Any kinds. I doubt I'll get any. Good thing parents will be going out tmr :-)

I wish. I wish with all my might. I wish to all the stars. That you'll talk to me.

Till then~